Sunday, January 22, 2012

CLOSE ENCOUNTERS OF THE UNBELIEVABLE KIND--THE SEVENTH FLOOR


CLOSE  ENCOUNTERS  OF  THE  UNBELIEVABLE  KIND
by A.V. Dhanushkodi

Hamlet: “There are more things in heaven an earth Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy ”---  HAMLET,  ACT I, Scene V


EPISODE  TWELVE  --  THE SEVENTH FLOOR

A Gothic interior in a mediaeval castle.   A huge window on the left and, directly opposite, a large fireplace with flames dancing to the tune of the wind as it howls at irregular intervals through the window.  A flight of steps goes up to a running balcony at the far end of which one could see two massive oak panelled doors.  The long and plaintive whining of a lone wolf is heard intermittently far away in the desolate wilderness.

In a deep leather upholstered sofa in front of the fireplace, a beautiful but pale looking young woman sits reclined, with a thick volume of much thumbed-through book, open and lying in her lap.  She is fast asleep.  The jittery flames play bizarre patterns on her face.  Again, the distant howling of the lone wolf is heard faintly. 

Suddenly, a blinding flash of lightning lights up the room in an ashen pallor, followed within seconds by a whiplash crack of thunder and the  room trembles.  The sleeping woman wakes up with a start, to see a horde of screeching bats, flapping their wings noisily, rush in through the large  window and rush out through the raging fireplace.  She screams in horror as she watches them, when….

….a huge bat gently rides the wind, flapping its enormous stygian black wings, and lands on the windowsill.  It is tall, lean, pale, and hypnotically handsome.  It is the horror of all horrors, the eternal blood-sucking bat, the very Count von Dracula himself, in “flesh and blood”.

The Count glides down to the floor, as light as the downy feather of a dove, and walks towards the beautiful woman, parting his thin bloody lips and baring his fangs in a mesmeric smile.  She looks at him and opens her mouth wide in wonderment and, as he comes within inches of her, faints.  He gathers her up in his arms and plunges his fangs deep into her long, white, and slender neck.

Suddenly the thundering hooves of horses approach the castle.  The Count drops the damsel down in a heap and looks at the fireplace.  The   huge mirror above it does not show his reflection.  In anger he stares at it and the huge mirror cracks to smithereens and collapses within itself.  He leaps into the fireplace and flies up with a swoosh, when the huge doors behind are thrown open and the master of the castle thunders in to find his wife in a heap, with blood trickling down her dainty neck from two fang marks. 

He looks at his wife in horror and anger.  Then he throws his head up and lets out a blood-curdling howl: “Ohhhhhh……. You blood-sucking fiendish horror!  I will roast you in hell-fire to eternity!”

“Ja, gut…gut…sehr gut!  Ist genug fuer heute, Ja?  Aber sehen Sie Herr Count von Dracula, Sie muessen aber den Gang zum Maedchen mit dem Takt der Musik synchronisieren”, spits Director Fischerrauer into one of the many microphones arrayed in front of him on the director’s table, pushing its button into action.

Count von Dracula throws up his hands in utter desperation, “Ich weiss, ich weiss,  Herr Fischerrauer, aber das ist ja so unmoeglich!”

Sitting behind Fischerrauer and watching the rehearsals for Dracula at one of the three theatres of the Staatstheater Complex in Berlin in October 1973, I was enjoying this daily ritual of desperate verbal duels between the Count and the Director.  The Director would insist that the Count must synchronize his every move to the recorded horror music and the Count---who could fly like a bat, crack a huge mirror with one look, jump into the fireplace and fly up through the chimney---would wail like a helpless baby that he could not do it!  Later, at the Canteen during the lunch break, he would swear that he would go for the jugular of Fischerrauer, after the opening night of the play!

The opening night was a resounding success.  The audience lapped it all up, in spite of  knowing by heart the whole story.  Dracula, for the Europeans, is an eternally loveable legend.  After much of hugging and back-patting in the green room, everyone was looking for Fischerrauer to congratulate him.  The Count, though, was looking for Fischerrauer for an entirely different reason.  He had not removed his costume and personal props, especially his fangs.  However, we were informed by the Stage Manager, that Herr Fischerrauer had left the theatre five minutes before the final curtain, to catch the last flight to Vienna, where he had another directorial assignment waiting for him, perhaps another stage version of Bram Stoker’s Count von Dracula!  We, however, suspected that he must have received telepathic transmission of Dracula’s intention, well in advance.
*
I was rehearsing for King Duncan in Macbeth with the Madras Players, when the Goethe Institute in Madras informed me that I had been selected for a six-month visit to the Federal Republic of Germany, to study contemporary German theatre in different cities.  I was thrilled beyond words.  It was not a dream-cum-true project, because I had not even dreamt of such an offer!  I learned later, that the scholarship was the direct outcome of my participation in the all-India theatre workshop in Simla the previous year.

When I applied for leave for six months at the American Consulate General, where I was working then, my Consul warned me not to be away for such a long time, as they might discover that if they could function  without me for six months, they really would not need me at all forever.  Acting on his wise advice, I took  three-month leave and boarded a Lufthansa flight from Madras to Frankfurt, on October 2, soon after the performances of Macbeth at the British Council.

*

From day one, I was absolutely at home in Berlin, my first city of stay, in stark contrast to my intense feeling of unease in Delhi, Bombay, Hyderbad, Bangalore, Mangalore, or Cochin, whenever I used to visit those cities on official assignments.  As modesty is not one of my virtues, I should say that many Germans were surprised that it was day one of my first visit to Germany in all my life.

My stay in Berlin for a month is memorable for other reasons as well.  Every evening I attended a play, met all the stars of the German theatre world at the Open Door Theatre Festival, interviewed Bruno Ganz, one of the star performers of the stage, crossed over to East Berlin and attended the performance of Berthold Brecht’s Galileo Galilei at the Bert Brecht’s Theatre, saw all that a tourist ought to see, and so on.  To top it all, was the Gemaelde Gallerie, where I spent hours feasting on the stunning beauty of the well-known and the not so well-known paintings of Ruebens and the other Renaissance masters. When I had to leave Berlin at the end of October, my heart was heavy.

*

Munich was next.  The International Theatre Institute had arranged my stay with an elderly couple in Munich, the Hausmanns.  They lived in an apartment in Stunzstrasse, in the outskirts of Munich.  When I moved into one of the bedrooms they had made ready for me, I found the room, the couple, and the house, all very warm and comfortable.  Also, to my great delight, I discovered on the very first day, that Herr Hausemann was an artist!  There was nothing more I needed to feel absolutely at home.

My daily routine began within a day or two after my arrival in Munich: daily visits to the Residenz Theater to attend rehearsals for Das Weite Land, under the direction of Kurt Meisel, a renowned actor and director.  I was fortunate to attend the rehearsals from the very beginning of reading and discussing the play, until almost it was ready for the stage.  I cancelled my scheduled stay in Hamburg for the month of December, as there was no significant theatre activity going on there and because I found the rehearsals for Das Weite Land extremely interesting.  Evenings, I saw a play without fail and returned home around 11.30 in the night.  I did sightseeing, whenever I found some time during daytime.

It was during one such sightseeing jaunts in the city, as I was walking on the pavement, I was blessed with one of mother nature’s loveliest bounties from Heaven, the first fall of snow!  It was such a transporting experience, when insubstantial airy snowflakes in translucent abstract patters gently floated down from the skies and settled all over me and everything around.  When I touched them, they melted instantly, even before my fingers could feel the tactile sensation, leaving just a drop of cool water.  I think it was around late November, when it started snowing.  I heard later, that it had never snowed so heavily in twenty years, pulling down the day temperature to a few degrees below zero and the night temperature to minus twenty.  Every night, returning home around 11.30 after watching a play, I would trudge my way from the last stop of the tram service to Stunzstrasse in three to four inch deep snow.  I could feel my feet and hands securely attached to my body, as I had covered them with woollen socks, leather shoes, and gloves, but I wasn’t too sure of the whereabouts of my long nose and big ears.

Those nocturnal walks, through the deserted streets of the suburb, often sent chills down my spine, as if the night temperature was not to be trusted to do that job.  My imagination took bizarre shapes and sounds, which kept me company through the fifteen-minute walk every night.  When I saw the moon on a clear blue night-sky, I heard the baying of wolves somewhere far away, but clear.  Some nights, I thought I even saw a few large bats flapping their wings noisily, dogging my steps now and then.  Although I knew they were mere hallucinations, only when I let myself  into the apartment building where I stayed, I felt safe.

*

One night, just before entering the apartment, I extracted a pack of Bensen & Hedges from the coin-operated vending machine and stepped into the foyer.  The foyer was a very small area, housing the lift and the flight of stairs going up.  I stood there for a few moments to light a cigarette and then pressed the button to open the lift door.  I got into the lift and waited for the doors to close, after pressing the button 6, the floor where I was staying with the Hausmanns.

The moment the doors began to close, I saw a tall figure enter the lift and stand next to me.  I could not see him very clearly, because my spectacles were covered with a thin layer of frost, coming into a warm interior from a cold exterior.  Furthermore, the swirling smoke from my cigarette   reduced visibility to near zero.  However, I did not care much to see him or wish him.  When the lift stopped at the sixth floor, I got out, but he did not.  I walked away from the lift, let myself in with my keys, and went to bed, without another thought about the tall stranger.

*

I visited the theatre without fail every day to attend the rehearsals.  It was a delight watching Kurt Meisel direct the actors.  He was always on his feet, on the stage, explaining every nuance of action, emotion, and portrayal of characters.  Himself being a brilliant actor (I watched his performance with great pleasure in Einen Jux Will Er Sich Machen ), often he even demonstrated how a line or an action should be rendered.  The play was based on the theme that every human being was a vast land (das Weite Land), which contained a myriad of characters contradicting and complementing each other at the same time.  A theme almost akin to what Hermann Hesse expounds in his divinely poetic style in Siddhartha, which was later made into a film with Sashi Kapoor and Simmi Garewal in the lead roles.  The film made a stunning visual impact on me, with Sven Nykvist handling the camera: every frame was like a painting from the   Renaissance movement in Europe, at the pinnacle of its glory.

*

Walking home from the last stop of the tram around 11.30 every night, my thoughts would wander in all directions, often coming back to the Count.  I would then chuckle to myself, wondering what a loveable character he was, recalling his growing desperation as the opening night approached.  In my mind, the fabled Count and the stage Count merged into one.  When such thoughts occurred, I fancied I did hear a lone wolf somewhere in the vicinity, at times near enough to send a wave of shivers within me.

As usual, I bought a pack of Bensen & Hedges from the vending machine, before entering the apartment building one night.  Again, as usual, I opened the pack in the foyer and lit a cigarette.  When I stretched my arm to press the button to open the door, I discovered to my surprise that the door was open and the tall foggy figure was already within the lift.  His head seemed to touch the ceiling of the lift cubicle, at least seven feet high.  I could not see him clearly this time also, as my glasses were covered with frost.  I could not wipe my glasses, as I was wearing thick leather gloves, despite which my hands were already numb.  For a moment I thought I should let the lift go, but the door did not close automatically; it seemed to wait for me to enter.  I stepped in, wondering why I hesitated at all, and the door closed automatically. 

As the lift slowly trundled up, my nostrils picked up a strange scent, a familiar scent, but I was unable to identify it.  When the lift reached the sixth floor it stopped and I got out.  I lingered for a second, to see if the stranger would step out, but he did not.  The door of the lift closed.  Well, he obviously lived on the seventh floor.  I let myself in with my key and went to bed.

*

On holidays and Sundays, I loved to spend the time with Herr Hausmann in his cosy little “studio”, smoking and chatting with him, as he drew his pictures with Indian ink on small watmann sheets.  We would be sipping a glass each of the legendary German beer.  He was proud that we were artists.  He would recount snippets from his life, and I would tell him about myself and my experiences in Germany.  He was proud that I had come all the way from India to study German theatre and, in the same breath, talk with genuine admiration and respect about Indian civilization, culture, and fine arts.  He would then punctuate his ramblings with a sigh and a wish, now and then, how he would love to visit India.  After our bout of tête-à-tête in his studio, invariably I was hosted to lunch by the Hausemanns.  Evenings, I would take long walks in the neighbourhood, if it was not snowing.

My day of departure was fast approaching.  I was to leave for London before Christmas, to spend the festive days with friends there, before leaving for India, for the New Year eve.

*

It was my last day at the theatre.  The play was scheduled to open on  Christmas eve, and they were having a run-through every day and fine-tuning after each run-through.  I took leave of all the actors and the director that evening.  After attending the performance of another play at another theatre, I took the tram to Stunzstrasse.

Getting down at the last stop and walking through the narrow winding streets, I took in everything eagerly and hungrily, for I was not sure if I would ever come again to that part of the world.  It had snowed rather mercifully that day, that my steps were light and less bothersome.  The moon was full, tinged with pale Naples Yellow and looked really like a ball of cottage cheese.  Everything was quiet, not a soul on the streets.

I bought two packs of Bensen & Hedges from the vending machine and walked towards my apartment building, opening one of the packs on the way.  In the foyer, I took my time to pull out a cigarette and light it.  Inhaling the warm smoke and letting it fill my lungs, I pressed the button to open the lift door.  As the door opened slowly, I got the rudest shock of my life.

Standing inside the lift, filling the full height of the cubicle, was the foggy figure I had “seen” before twice.  He could not have come in after me?  If he had come into the building before me and got into the lift, he had had enough time to start moving up?  Why didn’t he? 

As I was standing there undecided, he spoke, “Come in, it’s getting late for me”, in German of course.  His voice sounded like a computer generated sound, than a human voice.

I stepped into the lift and the door was closing slowly.  Realizing that that would be the last time with him in the lift, I was determined to take a good look at him.  The lift started to pull us up. 

Although I knew that without my glasses my vision was poor, I removed them, at least to do away with the misty veil, which was covering my vision.  When I removed them, I was in for another surprise:  my vision was still covered with mist, as if I still had my glasses on!

He spoke again, “I was waiting for you in the lift….to say auf Wiedersehen!
Wish you a pleasant stay in London!”  He extended his hand, but I did not.  I merely said, “Thank you” and fell silent.  How did he know? Herr Hausmann must have informed him.

The lift came to a stop on the sixth floor.  As the door opened slowly, I asked him, “Where do you live?”

“On the seventh,” he replied with a chuckle. 

“Of course!” I blurted, rather sheepishly. Then I added, “Auf Wiedersehen!” more out of politeness, and stepped out.

“Auf Wiedersehen!” he repeated, as the door was closing gently. 

I stood there and watched the door close fully.  Then I looked at the backlit panel above the door: the arrow was pointing up.

Coming into my room, I started packing my things, as I had to catch the flight to London early next morning.  My head was swarming with many myriad thoughts of my stay in Germany, and often I wondered why I had not made an effort to get to know the stranger in the lift. 

*

Early next morning, I took leave of the Hausmanns with a lump in my throat.  I promised them I would be their host, if ever they came to India. 

I took my big suitcase and walked out of the apartment.  Herr Hausmann accompanied me to the lift.  I put the suitcase down and pressed the lift button. 

As we waited for the lift to come up from the ground floor, I asked Herr Housmann, “Tell me Sir, who lives on the seventh floor?” pointing my finger up.

Herr Hausmann looked puzzled, “Sorry, I don’t understand you.  Did you say the seventh floor?”

I replied, “Yes.  The seventh floor”.

He looked even more puzzled.  After a second or two, he said, “Nobody.”

“What?” I asked.  It was now my turn to be puzzled, “Are you sure?”

Herr Hausmann looked up at me with a curious expression, “Herr Dhanushkodi, there is no seventh floor!”

*

The sun was coming up, as I walked out of the apartment building a few minutes later, carrying my suitcase.  I had a feeling of complete satisfaction that I had seen in Germany much more than I had hoped for.

A.V. Dhanushkodi
June 2011

CLOSE ENCOUNTERS OF THE UNBELIEVABLE KIND--STAGE WHISPER


CLOSE  ENCOUNTERS  OF  THE  UNBELIEVABLE  KIND
by A.V. Dhanushkodi

Hamlet: “There are more things in heaven an earth Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy ”---  HAMLET,  ACT I, Scene V


EPISODE  ELEVEN  --  Stage Whisper

April 1972. The rented Ambassador groaned its way up the winding Himalayan road towards Simla, with me in the front seat, next to the driver.  Dr. Lechner, Director of The Goethe Institute in Delhi, and Wolfram Mehring, the famous Austrian mime artiste from Paris, were in the back seat, chatting all the way up, distracting my attention from the magnificent scenic beauty of the mountains.   Were I not able to understand their language, the sound alone of their chatter would not have bothered me in the least.  But I understood German and spoke it well too, two of the four reasons I was selected to participate in the ten-day all-India theatre seminar and workshop in Simla.  The third reason was that I was the “prima donna” of the pioneering German theatre group of India in Madras and the fourth was I was one of the star performers of the English theatre group The Madras Players.

The van, which followed us, contained the cream of Indian theatre personalities from Delhi, Bombay, Calcutta, Hyderabad, and Bangalore: Satyadev Dubey, Burjor Patel, Om Shivpuri, Sudha Shivpuri, Chetna Tiwari, Ajitesh Banerjee, Ram Gopal Bajaj, Rajinder Nath, Rajinder Paul, Rajen Brijnath, Dr. Srinivasan, Kulbushan Karbandha, and Mohan Rakesh (the playwright who wrote the experimental play for the workshop).   During the climb up the undulating mountain range, I often wished I were with them in the van to enjoy the Himalayan beauty, when their chatter would have meant nothing more than noise, since I did not understand much of Hindi, as it had gone rusty with disuse.  It was an ironic situation to be in, where I could understand foreigners but not my own people: one of the paradoxes of pan-Indian culture.

After more than an hour-long climb, we stopped in front of a magnificent mansion, the Vice Regal Lodge, the former residence of Viceroy Lord Dufferin, designed by the renowned architect Henry Irwin, presently housing the Indian Institute of Advanced Study. It was here that many historic decisions were taken, including the partition of India.  The walls were not plastered, with just the burnt-sienna coloured bricks showing, giving the building a sombre dignity, rarely to be found in recently constructed buildings.  It was on an elevated level, away from the town, which we were to visit almost every day in the following ten days of our stay there. 

As our luggage was being unloaded and taken to our allotted rooms, we stretched our legs, walking around, enjoying the cool air and the stately and serene ambience. I was keen to look at the rear of the building as well, always interested in old and dilapidated buildings, not with an eye for appreciating the different architectural styles, but with the eye of an artist for sketching or painting them, if possible.  Apart from the style of the structures, old buildings have innumerable little, little, tell-tale signs of their own history from the time they were built, which people, who had lived there through years and centuries, would have left behind.   Those signs give them a living character, as that of old men, unlike new-born clean- slate babies, waiting to be written on.

I ambled along the façade of the building, admiring every inch of it and turned around its flank and suddenly came face to face with the most breathtaking vision I had ever seen.  I stood there, mesmerized and paralysed, I knew not how long.  Before me, spanning the whole breadth of the sky, in its entire visibility of 180 degrees, were peak after peak after peak of sparkling white Himalayan range, magically hanging in mid-air!   Turquoise blue sky above and below!

That day and all the following days of our stay there, my soul  was  soaked   fully with that magnificent vision day and night.  The vision changed from time  to  time with the changing light of the sun and the moon: the  sky  from  turquoise to  cerulean to cobalt  to ultramarine and so on, and the peaks from flake white to pale vermilion to crimson to cadmium orange to lemon yellow to naples yellow and so on.  I can go on listing all the blues and greenish blues and all the yellows, reds, and oranges, but still be woefully short of words to descibe the hues, shades, and tones nature played with, in an endless show of pure and divine magic.

*

I was put up with Burjor Patel from the Parsi theatre in Bombay, a very gentle and soft spoken young actor, who had made a mark with his theatre group in Bombay.  The room was large with parquet flooring, bay windows, and furnished with highly polished ornamental chairs, tables and sofas.  We were delighted beyond words, when we took in everything in one sweep, except the spring cots, a bane for me in particular.  At the time I was suffering from severe and constant back-pain.  I feared, the spring cot might make me an invalid by the time the seminar was over.  Luckily, it did not.

The room reminded me of the two guest rooms on the ground floor of our residence in Karaikal, when my father took over from the French on November 1, 1954.  While in college, whenever I  spent my holidays with my parents, I spent almost all my time in one or the other of those rooms reading my favourite authors.  When Jawaharlal Nehru and Indira Gandhi were on an official visit to Pondicherrry and Karaikal for a couple of days, they stayed in those rooms, as did India’s first President Dr. Rajendra Prasad and Morarji Desai, who was then a Central Cabinet Minister in the Congress ministry and later became the Prime Minister, when the Janatha Party came to power, much later.  I still preserve the precious  gems of photographs of my parents with them during the visits of those dignitaries.

*

The next day, after breakfast, we got down to business.  We decided to split into four groups, under four eminent directors: Ajitesh Banerjee from Calcutta, Satyadev Dubey from Bombay, Rajinder Nath from Delhi, and Wolfram Mehring.  Each group would produce the same play, to be presented at the end of the workshop at Gaiety Theatre, the oldest theatre in India, designed by the architect Henry Irwin and constructed in the year 1887.  I was to work with Ajitesh Banerjee.  Only later, that night, I was to discover that my contribution extended beyond being just an actor.

In addition to the participants from different theatre groups from all over India, there were the charming group of girls from the Ministry of Information and Broadcasting, residents of Simla, working for the All India Radio and the Doordharshan.  Their specialization was in song, dance, and drama.  Almost all of them were put together in Mehring’s group, along with some of the participants I have already mentioned.  In addition to donning one of the roles in the play in Ajitesh Banerjee’s group, I was to help Mehring in communicating with the girls, as his working knowledge of English was rather shaky.  Ironically, my working knowledge of Hindi was more shaky.  We managed, nevertheless, to invent a hybrid  language between German, English, and Hindi. 

Every  night, after dinner, we would all meet in the drawing room, to exchange notes on the day’s work, relaxing in the warmth of real fire in the hearth.  There too, I had to play the role of an interpreter for Mehring.  The discussions would start on a low key but, as time progressed, they became fiery.  Coupled with the task of interpreting Mehring to the others, the discussions got too hot for me, making me feel that the fireplace was one too much for the occasion for me.
*

We fell into a routine of getting up early every morning and taking a pleasant walk down to the Mall, a kind of an open space in the centre of Simla, and returning for a sumptuous breakfast, after which we split, to work with our groups on the play until lunch.  Breakfast, lunch, and dinner were unfailingly  veritable feasts fit for kings and queens.  After lunch, we rested for an hour or two and resumed  work and continued until about 5.  Evenings, we took leisurely walks to the town again,  just to loiter around and do petty shopping, as we walked the narrow alleys, along houses and shops on the terraced slopes.  After dinner, there were discussions and exchanges of notes, sipping either wine or brandy.

*

The playwright Mohan Rakesh remarked in his Preface to the play Mad Delight, “The present script, which is only an outline, should be treated just as suggestions in the matter of juxtaposing sound, words, and visuals as parallel entities, all independent and yet very much interdependent; while they exist and grow in separation, they are not all meaningful separately.  Whatever meaning can be discovered in them is only in their collaborative totality. With any shift of emphasis the meaning can, will, and should change.”

In our group, Ajitesh Banerjee asked me to be the Voice, which introduced the play, made comments on the actions, and interacted with the characters.  He put me on a high pedestal, which nobody ever did until then, either literally or figuratively, and froze me, as I had to “act” only with my voice.  My face alone was lit in the darkness and I literally became a disembodied voice, as the playwright Mohan Rakesh had intended it to be.  I was more than happy to do my part, as my voice was good and strong but,  in order to decapitate  myself I had to hold in front of my face a lit candle stuck on a small metal plate, which got hotter and hotter by the minute. The single lit candle gave  an eerie and ghostly look to my face (even without so much pains I looked eerie, ghostly, and weird anyway).  I had to be extremely careful not to blow out the candle with my breathing and voice or get my moustache singed in the process.  Even the master magician P.C. Sorcar would have thought thrice before undertaking such an abominable venture, but I did it on the day of the performance, if not during the rehearsals. What I found more harrowing than that feat was something else which seemed more  simple but was not: delivering my lines in Hindi!

I had learnt Hindi in school, but allowed it to rust out of disuse.  Those days, Tamilians were averse to speaking in Hindi, especially students of my age, thanks to the anti-Hindi agitations of the Dravidian political parties DK and the DMK, with their leaders fomenting anti-Hindi feelings with their fiery street-junction speeches and flowery writings in their journals Dravida Nadu, Murasoli, and Thendral.

Now, after nearly twenty years, I was called upon to perform a nerve racking task.   I protested many times, but Banerjee would hear none of it. I even thought up dirty tricks and spoke the language with a horrible accent  and bad pronunciation, which Ajitesh happily accepted, ascribing them to my South Indian origin; in fact, he was most appreciative of my effort, saying that my Hindi was really good, although with a south Indian flavour.  Also, I often pretended to forget lines, but Ajitesh understood my unfamiliarity with the language and assured me that, with more rehearsals, I should be fine on the D-day.  As the D-day (read Dooms Day) approached, I became more and more agitated.

One evening, I decided to go to the Gaiety Theatre to take my mind off the oppressive rehearsals and get acquainted with the stage and the auditorium.  It took me some time before I could convince the caretaker of the theatre that I belonged to the theatre-workshop group, which would be performing there soon.  When he finally let me in reluctantly through the stage door, I walked on to the stage and stood in the middle of it, facing the auditorium.  What I felt then was most singular, when I think on it now as I write.  The theatre was an almost exact replica of the Museum Theatre in Madras, where I had performed for The Madras Players countless  number of times, except that it was a mini version of the Museum Theatre!  As I stood there, I felt like a player on his home-turf, and knew instantly that everything was going to be great!  There were, of course, a few differences: the whole semi-circular auditorium was just about the dimensions  of the pit in the Museum Theatre and there were balconies above the audience, to seat the VIPs.  However, that which attracted my attention most, were the huge dimmers of the stage-lights, or the rheostats:  used to operating electronic thumbnail-knobs, I was truly thrilled to see huge rheostats, about four feet high, with wooden handles one had to lift up or push down, to vary the brightness of the stage-lights!   

As I stood there, allowing the whole atmosphere  to soak in, I suddenly hit upon the idea of rehearsing my role then and there!  By then, I had learnt all my lines.  However, what I quote now is what I remember in English and Hindi, after about 40 years, not a verbatim rendering of  the script.

I exited the stage and made an entry, miming a lit candle in my cupped hands.  I stood in the centre of the stage, at the back, and slowly started saying my lines in Hindi.

“And that is the crisis of the age.  The crisis involves values.  The values involve an epidemic of ideas….”  I trailed off, as I heard some indistinct noises.  I could not say for sure, from where or caused by what.  They were like static electric noises one hears while tuning a radio.  They stopped within seconds after I stopped.

I decided to ignore it and continued with my lines, “Manushya ke jeevan main sab kuch mila-jula hai…..” Again I trailed off when I heard the noises, a little louder this time.  They started within seconds after I started and stopped seconds after I stopped.  This time I was more puzzled and annoyed.  Could they be seeping in from the street?  I dismissed the thought immediately, as I was convinced that Henry Irwin would never have designed an auditorium with such bad acoustics.  I recollected having read that Gaiety Theatre was well-known for its excellent acoustics.  Then I realized it could not have been the street noises, because they stopped the moment I stopped.  Also, the street noises would be distinctly different and would not be dovetailed to my delivery of the lines. The only plausible explanation I could think of was that it must be a faint echo of my voice, because the auditorium was empty.  If that was true, I had nothing to worry about, as the echo would not occur, when the auditorium was filled with audience, hopefully.  Comforted by that conclusion, I delivered my lines from the beginning to the end with ease and complete satisfaction, despite the disturbing noises trailing after my VOICE.

When I returned to the guesthouse, dinner was in progress.  As I joined the others, I was welcomed by some of the young participants with Mona Lisa smiles on their lips and oblique references to escapades with the pretty girls from the Song, Dance, and Drama Division.  How I wished they were true!

*

The hall was full.  Directly opposite the stage, I was sitting with Rajen Brijnath, a participant from Calcutta.  Each of us had a big drum in front, assigned to drum away for Dubey’s  vigorous version of the play!  We held our breath and waited for the third bell to go.  When it did, all hell broke loose!  It sounded and looked really like the D-day, when the Allied Troops landed on the Normandy beaches on June 6, 1944!  We were caught up in a torrent of sounds, voices, action, and reaction.  Actors and stage-props tumbled on to the stage, ran, jumped, danced, screamed, and we added our mighty part by drumming away furiously for Dubey and Chetna Tiwari doing the dance of copulation on the stage!

Fully absorbed in  the different versions of the play unfold before me, I suddenly realized that the next and the last was ours.  I shot out of the balcony and made a beeline for the green-room.  Ajitesh and the others in our group were waiting for me to take my place, as I was the first to enter the stage.  I had my make-up and costume already on.  

We heard thunderous applause, when Rajinder Nath’s version came to a close and the participants took the curtain-call.  When they exited the stage, the stage-lights went out for the stage-hands to set the stage for our version.  As Rajendranath’s actors  entered the green-room, there was a round of hugging and whispered words of appreciation.  Then, absolute pin-drop silence in the green-room and we could hear muffled sounds from the stage as the scene was being set for us.  In less than a minute, the black-clad stage-hands entered and their leader raised his hand to indicate that everything was ready for us.  Strangely, I was extremely calm, not even the usual churning in the stomach every actor goes through, waiting in the wings before  entering the stage.  I was watching Agitesh for his singnal for our move.  Unexpectedly, in the semi-darkness of the green-room, I saw him come towards me.  Without a word, he hugged me warmly and patted me on the back.  Then, I could hear him take a deep breath before his right hand shot up. 

I picked up the single lit candle, stuck on a small metal plate, and walked calmly with measured steps on to the stage, followed by the other actors.  I took my place on the stacked up bricks, upstage centre.  The other actors took their places.  In the near-total darkness of the stage, I made sure that everyone had taken his place.  Then, I raised my head slowly and looked up, the signal for the stage lights to fade-in slowly.  I could mentally see the wooden handle of the huge rheostat being heaved up slowly as the lights faded-in gently, when I was to begin my lines, to synchronise with the pace of lights fading in on the actors centre and down stage.

Then, to my utter horror, my mind went blank!  The moment every actor dreads to face, I was facing now, literally, as I had only my face to face the horror.  I had to begin my lines immediately, otherwise synchronisation with the stage-lights would be lost.  My mind was rummaging through my “memory” at a furious pace for the opening lines.  I was sure, once I got  the opening lines, I would latch on to the following lines. 

It was then the most unbelievable thing happened!  A gentle voice whispered into my ear the opening lines: “And that is the crisis of the age..”  in Hindi, “Yahee zamanei ka museebath hei”.  I was stunned, but it was like manna from Heaven! 

During the rehearsals, I had begged Ajitesh many times to give me a prompter, but he refused flatly, as he knew that that would make me lax in learning my lines.  Now I realized that, without my knowledge, he had got a prompter ready to help me from the wings!

Immediately, I opened my lines with a gentle stage-voice: “Yahee zamanei ka museebath hei…” (Readers are requested to forgive me, if my lines are infested with errors. Since I do not have the script with me, I am “quoting” them from memory, after forty years since I learned them.) At that moment the whole text rushed back into my consciousness with rare clarity!

But, before I could say my next line “Yeh museebath hamarei..” I heard the prompter’s voice whisper them into my ears!  I had no option but to follow the whispered words! Again, before I could say the next lines, the voice whispered them into my ears, and I had to follow that voice.  The voice was crystal clear, perfectly paced,  and devoid of all emotions, as we had intended it to be. But, I also observed that the voice sounded rather odd.  Within a few minutes, I was able to identify the oddity of the voice.  It had a faint trace of British accent!  I was puzzled, but immediately dismissed all thoughts about the prompter, to concentrate on my role.

“Manushya ke jeevan….” as the prompter’s voice went on and on, from line to line to line, I was reduced to the status of a subservient voice, which began to annoy me increasingly, until I was worked up to a state of fury, and waited for the play to end, to commit a double murder!

Finally, when the play did end, we got the longest and loudest standing ovation from the audience!  When I took the curtain call alone, before making the final exit, the audience went mad.  I was, however, most depressed.  Ajitesh and his moronic prompter had robbed me of all my glory, which should have been solely mine!

In the green-room, everyone was hugging and patting everyone else.  Soon, a stream of spectators from the auditorium poured into the green-room and started shaking hands and congratulating everyone around, some of them unwittingly congratulating each other!

When the milling crowd started to disperse, I took Ajitesh aside to ask him how he could do this to me.  He, however, hugged and patted me and said, “You did it, you finally did it!  You were simply great!”

“Yes, thanks to your prompter, who wouldn’t leave me alone, right through the play,” I retorted, somewhat calmed down by then, but still palpably peeved.

“What?  What are you talking about?” asked Ajitesh, with a genuinely uncomprehending look in his eyes.

 I was even more annoyed now.  “Sir, I am grateful to you for getting me a prompter, but he should have been much less intrusive.  Anyway, I’d like to thank him for his enthusiasm.  Where is he and who is he?” I was searching the room with my eyes.

Ajitesh was really puzzled now.  “Dhanushji, I really don’t understand what you are talking about.  I never got a prompter for you, because I knew from the start you would be great on the stage.  And, by God, you were!”

Now, I was more perplexed, when I realized that Ajitesh was not acting, but speaking the truth.  I was also sure that I did hear the prompter’s voice whispering into my ear, every word of my text.

*

We were to leave the next morning,  after breakfast.  I packed my things that night, after the grand dinner party  at the guest house for all the participants and some invited Simla VIPs.  My sleep, however, was restless that night.

I  got up rather early the next day, around five, to take another look, the last perhaps, at the magnificent snow-clad peaks of the Himalayan range behind the guest house.  I stood there for nearly half an hour and soaked myself fully in the splendour of the spectacle to my heart’s content.  Then I thought of taking a walk to the Mall for the last time perhaps. 

I took a slow walk, down  and up the long road, taking in everything around me, perhaps for the last time.  When I reached the Mall, I strolled around aimlessly for some time, when I suddenly realized that my legs had taken me to the Gaiety Theatre.  I approached it with a tinge of nostalgia, which I usually develop very quickly for places I have been in.  The gate was not locked, but the caretaker was not to be seen anywhere. Perhaps he had gone out to have a cup of tea.  I quietly slipped in and walked around the building.  I saw that the foyer was open but the auditorium was locked.

I entered the foyer and walked around, looking at everything there.  There were portraits on canvas of about a dozen English men and women.  One of them attracted my attention.  It was a full-figure portrait of an Englishman in a vaguely familiar costume. He was lean and tall and had a regal bearing.  His face was extremely handsome and his eyes were kind and gentle.  I strained my eyes to look at the inscription at the bottom, which read “Major David Hume as Hamlet”. I stood there for quite a long time, admiring the actor and the portrait.  Then I decided it was time I left, if I was not to  miss my breakfast and the ride back to Delhi in the rickety Ambassador.  That was when something caught my attention.

It was a modest marble slab, embedded in the wall, next to the main entrance to the auditorium.  I thought I would take a quick look at the inscription, before I left.  I walked towards it and stood before it to read the inscription.

                                   
This The Gaiety Theatre
Is Dedicated to  Major  David Hume
An Actor of Extraordinary Talent and Humaneness
Who Suffered a Sudden and Fatal Massive Cardiac Arrest
While Performing the Role of Hamlet on this Stage
For the Most Exalted Audience
Her Majesty Queen Victoria
The Empress of India
On the 30th of  May
In the Year of Our Lord 1887

*

As the rickety Ambassador rolled down the mountain road towards Delhi, I was completely at peace with myself.  Never before had I slept so soundly and peacefully like a baby.


A.V. Dhanushkodi
May 2011

CLOSE ENCOUNTERS OF THE UNBELIEVABLE KIND--DRAWN IN


CLOSE ENCOUNTERS OF THE UNBELIEVABLE KIND
A.V. DHANUSHKODI


Hamlet: “There are more things in heaven and earth Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy”.  HAMLET, ACT  I , SCENE V


EPISODE TEN--- DRAWN IN

The tenth episode of this series was a bizarre experience, to use a mild expression.   It was all so sudden and unexpected that I had no time to think or act, to escape the situation.  It was a black hole, which sucked me in completely.

I was giving final touches to a large canvas I was painting, a scene from the epic Ramayana.  When I stepped back to view the picture critically from a distance, I was quite pleased with the outcome.  It was the only picture, in which all the characters were drawn and painted after models, who posed specially for them. 

Rama is seated on a stone, leaning relaxed against a tree trunk, and Seetha is seated at his feet, with her right arm on his lap, looking lost in total admiration for his divine grace.  Lakshmana stands in the background, at a discreet distance, alert as ever against any evil force, which may approach them any time.

It was a physically static picture, with no action in the characters or the background, but I liked it that way, because the action was in the vibrations between the characters: Seetha’s devotion to Rama, Rama’s unwavering love for Seetha, and Lakshmana’s boundless love and devotion for them both, expressed in his untiring vigil.  I was happy I had done a good job. 

Finally, as there was nothing more to be done, I took a thin brush with rounded bristles  to sign and date the painting, but the palette was not there and the paints were not there.  In the place of the long bench I used for keeping them, there was a stone and some shrubs around.  Then I noticed that the brush I was holding was but a thin twig.  Confused, I looked up at the painting, but there was no canvas with my painting before me.  I was standing in the foreground of the scene I had painted, not in my studio.

Rama and Seetha were sitting about thirty feet from where I was standing and Rama was talking to her.   I could faintly hear his voice, as he was talking to her in a low and gentle tone.  Often I could hear Seetha laughing and chuckling, from which I surmised that he was telling her a funny story.  I was tempted to move closer to listen to his story, but I did not want to attract Lakshmana’s attention and wrath.  Also, it would be pointless to do so, as I could not understand the language Rama spoke, picking up the few words that floated towards me in the gentle breeze.  I turned around to see if there was a way I could slip out of the scene, although I was strongly tempted to stay on and bask in the beauty of Rama and Seetha and the soothing scene I had created from my imagination on the canvas.  To my utter amazement, an awesome river   was running to the brim behind me: must be the Sarayu river.    There was no way I could have crossed that river alive. 

After a moment’s thought, I decided that attempting to get away would be unwise anyway, as that would attract Lakshmana’s attention, which was the last thing I wanted to do.  Finally, I decided to crouch behind the rock, which used to be my bench, and watch.  Very, very slowly I sank down behind the rock and watched. 

I did not have to wait long, before something happened.  I could hear the faint silvery rhythmic tinkle of anklets in the distance.  At the same moment, I saw Lakshmana stand erect; his hand gripped the bow, which he had left leaning on the tree trunk next to him, and his look darted in the direction from which the sound came.

Then, from behind a tall bush, emerged a celestial beauty I had ever seen in my life.   She was tall, slender, and fair, so fair that she seemed to glow from within.  Her face and figure were, at once, divine and seductive.  She was decked, from top to toe, with the rarest of ornaments, set with the most precious stones I have ever known.  As I crouched there, transfixed by her seductive charm, I suddenly realized that it was Surpanaka, Ravana’s sister. 

As she approached Rama, step by step, with a smile more mysterious than Mona Lisa’s, I thought she was floating, wafted in the air like a fairy, so light and undulating were her movements.  She couldn’t have taken more than a few steps, when Lakshmana blocked her like a flash, with his sword in the hand. 

Rama looked up at her and gestured to Lakshmana to let her approach.  Lakshmana stepped back after a moment’s hesitation.  Unperturbed by the interruption, Surpanaka approached Rama and placed her hand gently on his shoulder.                                                                                                   

Rama looked up at her and asked politely, “Sister, what is it you desire?”

Surpanaka smiled and replied, “Rama, I am not your sister.  I am Surpanaka, sister of Ravana, the all-powerful monarch of the three worlds.”

I was surprised I could understand their language.  With that realization, my curiosity to listen to their conversation sharpened.

“The sister of the mighty monarch is  welcome to my humble abode.  Is it not our culture to consider all women our sisters, except the wife?  How do you know who I am?”

“There is nothing we do not know.  This is your wife Seetha, and that rash young man is your brother Lakshmana.”

“I am very much impressed by your knowledge.  I apologize for the rash and rude behaviour of my brother.  He is over-concerned for my safety, as these forests are known to be inhabited by demons.”

“Would you call me a demon?” 

“Not even in my dream.  But you don’t live in these forests?”

“I don’t, but this world and the other two, are my brother’s domains.  As such, I may roam them at will, without being challenged.  This is the first time I was ever challenged but, since he is your brother, I ignore the affront.  So, you may dream of me?”

“I did not mean to say that.  It was only an assumption.  I never dream of any woman except my wife here, Seetha,” he fondly caressed Seetha’s hair. 

“Of whom did you dream, before you were married?” Surpanaka taunted him.

“A good question.  I dreamt of nothing but my duties, as a son to my parents and, as the heir-apparent, the duties I owe  my people.  I had nothing on my mind, all through my waking and resting hours. (Pause)  It is obvious that you are not married.”

“Of course I am not, as you have observed the absence of a thaali around my neck, and the mettis on my toes, and the red-thilak on the parting of my hair.”

“True. But, by the fact you are talking to a stranger, a married man at that, I should have concluded that you were married.”   

“May not unmarried girls talk to strangers, in your part of the land?”

“Of course they may, but only in the presence of a chaperone.”

“Why?  Do you distrust unmarried girls?  How will they then  marry?”

“We do trust the girls, but we do not trust the men,” replied Rama with a smile. 

“But it was Eve who tempted Adam?”

“Amazing!  You are so well informed of the past and the future.   Unfortunately, your understanding of the event is so wrong.” 
                                                 
“I don’t understand you.”

“It was Satan, who, in the guise of a snake, gave Eve the fruit of knowledge to tempt Adam.  Satan was a man.   The snake was only an illusion.  In truth, it is a symbol, like the Linga.  Do not women, married or unmarried, worship the snake and the Linga in your part of this world?”

Surpanaka laughed heartily, to Rama’s great surprise, “I expected the crown prince to have superior knowledge and intelligence. But you have shown me how wrong I was.”

Now it was Rama’s turn to say, “I don’t understand you.”
 
“Of course you don’t.  You don’t understand me, because you don’t understand nature.  First, your premise is wrong: nowhere is it given that Satan was a man.  It too is an allegorical force, commonly called the Anti-Christ, which is immanent in everyone and everything, present anywhere anytime.  Secondly, women worship the serpent, so that it may awaken from slumber to drink the milk we offer.  We also worship the Linga, so that its ego will stand tall and erect.  So was Eve’s apple an offering to Adam, so that he may be enticed to perpetuate the species.  We give birth to men, nurture them with the nourishment which flows from our bodies, so they may propagate the species through us.  Nature has chosen us, women, to entice men’s immature ego with the apple, which is a metaphorical counterpoint to your Linga, so that the species may proliferate this earth.”

There was a long silence when Rama sank deep into thought.  He was looking into Seetha’s eyes, but his thoughts were inward drawn.  It was difficult for me to delve into Seetha’s mind, as she was looking up at him, with so much love and devotion.  Was she refuting Surpanaka’s perception with her suppliant love and devotion, or was she confirming Surpanaka’s contention with her comforting look?   

When Rama spoke, his tone expressed resignation, “Sister, what is it you desire now?”

Surpanaka replied with the most enchanting smile, “I desire to be your wife, not sister.”

Rama looked at her for a long time, shaking his head, “We cannot”, he said finally.

“Why not?  It is neither wrong nor against custom to have many wives.  How many wives did your father have?  Were you and Lakshmana born to the same wife of your father?”

“I am not my father,” anguished Rama.

“But you are his most dutiful son.  Should not the Crown Prince follow in the footsteps of the King?  Do you know why Kings, why even common men, have many wives?  First, because they want their brood to proliferate the world in large numbers and, secondly, they want to beget strong children, and old wives are capable of giving neither the first, nor the second.  But Rama, before all that, remember that all the feminine charms  used by women to entice men to wed them, fade and fail with age, when they want to bed them.”

“You use most cruel words,” chastised Rama.

“Truth is cruel.  Do you know why your father, the King, banished you?  Not because he had to keep his promise made to Kaikeyi, but because she was young and voluptuous. What was a promise made by a man to his wife, against the implicit promise he had to fulfil as a King?  Especially as her demands were against Rajneethi, whichever way you look at the question? Is it not a King’s duty towards his people that he bequeaths his crown to the best of his sons, so that he may rule them justly and give them peace, prosperity and happiness?  Are you not that son? And also the rightful heir to the throne, the first son born to the first wife?”

Rama was distraught with no defence.

“Look at Seetha.  How old is she?  Thirty?  If appearances aren’t deceptive, she is carrying two of your seeds.  How strong will your children be, when you are ready to relinquish your throne?  Of what use will she be to you, when they suck out all her youth?  Look at me.  I am thirteen.  Your Seetha is nowhere near my beauty or intelligence.”  

“You will not be thirteen forever?  Your age and beauty will also wither with time and what will be left of you then?”

“True.  Then I will, on my own, yield my place to another, perhaps younger and more beautiful than me.  As your mother did.”

“You speak as though you were a toy to play with and thrown away when old and tattered.  Are you not vitiating your own views?”

“I am not.  It is part of Nature’s scheme to beget the fittest, so they may survive.  Seen with blinkers, we are toys for men, but viewed  broadly, we beguile men, beget children, and sustain them.  Nature has chosen us to do its work.”

“How will you, then, fulfil your biological needs?”

“We will seek others, and others will seek us.”

“Is it a mere matter of musical chairs?  Who will seek you when you are a wilted flower?”

“That is only one side of the coin.  The other side is the novelty of the experience with a different person, which has nothing to do with age.  Both sides are heads.”

“You get carried away by the power of your dialectics, and miserably fail to see the Truth, which lies beyond  mere verbal calisthenics, because Truth cannot be verbalized; the very attempt polarizes Truth.  A split Truth is Two Lies, the reason Rishis meditate in non-verbal thought.”

“Rama, then what is Truth?”

“The Beginning and the End.”

“The two poles?”

“No.  They are the same point.  The point of Nothingness.”

“And what lies in between?” demanded the anguished Surpanaka.

“Lies!” answered Rama calmly.

With that, all the colours coalesced  into a brilliant flash of white and I went  blind.  When I woke up, after hours, I was lying on the floor in my studio.  I sat up and looked at my painting, but  it was a clean sheet of primal canvas.  It was more beautiful than any picture I had ever painted.

I was still holding my brush.  Slowly I diluted a little of Ivory Black and signed my name at the bottom of the canvas on the left and dated it: A.V.Dhanushkodi, April 23, 2010. 

White, a perfect harmony of all colours, and Black, a perfect absence of all colours, were there.  Those that lie in between, the lies, were not there. 


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